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Thursday, December 18, 2003
I am turing a new corner in my life... I am going to live for the moment, and truly treasure each moment of my life. I feel that special things have really been passing me by recently, and I think I am going to learn to savor each moment. I'm not going to try and fight my feelings for anything or anyone, I am going to let life happen, and not stand in its way! Hey,life is really like a box of chocolates, and i don't want to know what I am going to get... lol
I have my interview at Wagner tomorrow... OH GOD... Hopefully they tell me if I will get accepted, so that I can plan out my auditions. OMG, this is so nerve racking... What if I like don't get into any schools? Do any of you know how heartbroken I will be? I will probably never do another show again if I don't make it in a theater program anywhere! AAAAHHHH :(:(:(:(
Life is going as usual... I'm not in a show, which means I am depressed lol Not doing the school show really ruined my year, but I am slowly getting over it. Like everyone is talking about rehearsal, and I just miss doing it is all. It's also still painful to think of how I got screwed after putting 4 years into something, and then in the end I get nothing to show for it. Yea, I got the show stealing part last year, but this was the year I wanted to remember, and I feel like I missed out. And No, I wasn't going to take the insulting role I was given either! I can't wait until LaMancha which I decided to do, becasue I need to be with my FRIENDS! (Thanks for talkin me into it Joey :))I adore and miss you all!!
Did you ever have a conversationabout absolutley nothing for about an hour? Well, if you haven't and would like to Im Jason Greenhouse @ JAG6627! lol We totally had a conversation for an hour and I had no idea what it was about! lol Jason, you're amaizng... lol BTw, I will never forget your tantrum over the waffle fries!! haha so, yes Jason, the little furry things are gunna come after you, and I hope you regain your SIGHT! lol
THW MIND OF GREENPANTS!!!
JAG6627: I have a medical condition
JAG6627: what conversation
Showgirl1116: i dont know what u are talking about
JAG6627: who?
Showgirl1116: what?
Showgirl1116: when?
Showgirl1116: where?
Showgirl1116: why?
Showgirl1116: how many?
JAG6627: aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........they're comming to get me
JAG6627: I don't know who but I'm not gonna stick around to find out
Showgirl1116: omg... i can smell them coming
Showgirl1116: those furry bastards
JAG6627: oh dear god....whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
Showgirl1116: i dont know.... dont move... they are attracted to movment
Showgirl1116: ull be fine... they only lick u with their abnormally long
tounges
JAG6627: but I just set myself on fire
Showgirl1116: u mught actually be aroused by it for a while... but then they
will go away
Showgirl1116: why would u do that?
JAG6627: are they gonna have their way with me..........ccause I'm not sure
if I'm cool with that
Yes, another lovely Entry! :)
Current mood:  tired Current music: "Merry Christmas Baby"~HANSON
Thursday, December 11, 2003
As excited as I am to go on vacation for Christmas break, it doesn't feel like Christmas. I haven't even set foot in the mall yet to buy ANYONE ANYTHING! LOL B/C IM SOOO BROKE! SEND DONATIONS TO: NICOLE ANN RETA, 9 MIRTA COURT JACKSON NJ, 08527... LOL HAHA! But spending Christmas on the beach and stuff just doesn't seem like Christmas to me, ya know? But, I am excited about going back to Disney. There is a picture of me at 3 kissing Mickey Mouse, and we are gunan take one at age 18 kissing Mickey!! How awesome is that? I hope that dirty mouse doesn;t try and slip me the tounge... lol
Anyway, my life is totally changing, and it's kinnda scary. Andrew is not around in my life anymore, I'm not doing the school show, and pretty soon I'll know where I'm going to school next year. A new life? (haha Jekeyl and Hyde... lol)New people, and a new outlook on life is what I have. Went out for breakfast this morning with my BFF Kaitlyn! We had fun going into school late, eventhough that BLT gave me heartburn, lol. Can I tell you all how much I love her? Let me count the ways...
We have been friends since like elementry school and we used to have this hand shake that went, "Father. son, holy spirit genie!" lol Our brothers used to play baseball and we would have to sit at the baseball field, where Kaitlyn met "we all know who" who at the time liked and stalked me... lol "OMG.. this water is clumpy", remember that Kait? hahah Who would have guessed he would have turned to you and made your life hell? lol We have shared so much over the years.... All the boy trama, and yet you have only been mad at me once, and didn't talk to me in math... LOL, but just think, that if i didn't break it up, what would have happened, you might have never met Brandin :) And how the 2 of us like to put up "dry wall" hahahahahha GREAT CONVO IN THE CAR TODAY! I LOVE YOU HUNNY! ~Later
Current mood:  bouncy Current music: "Dominick the Donkey" hhahaha
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Don't you all love those kids that go to your school that for got WHAT THE SHOWER IS??!?! LIKE, OMG! At rehearsal today after school, the kid standing next to me on the risers smelled entirley of CAT URINE!! GROSSSSS!!! WANTED TO PUKE!!! Then after the rehearsal his girlfriend came to see him, and they were like making out, and I wanted to pull her away and say, "OMG DON'T YOU SMELL HIM!!!!!!"
But anyway... my class tonight was great... Scott is my life! I can't wait to take phase 2, DUETS! I learned so much from this class, and my song turned out really good! YEA... LOVE IT!!! The kids in it are great too... performance is next week :(
Haven't talked to Andy in days... I'm starting to see how much he really cares... NOT! I think it might be over for real, and I'm not sure if it's good or bad, but I have "other things" on my mind too. I can't help but be attracted to other people when he pays me no attention, am I wrong? Am I entiltled to be happy? YES I THINK I AM... And this is the wrong time for this anyway... He's away, I'm here... I feel it coming to and end, and its sad but true.
"Look Joey, I feel DORKY!!!!" lol
Current mood: dorky Current music: "Miss You Most At Christmas Time"~Mariah Carey
Tuesday, December 9, 2003
So anyway... This past weekend was crazy!! Can you say, NO SLEEP? I had to stay up all night and be the SEX POLICE on Saurday, b/c 2 certain people, who shall remain nameless, refused to keep their PANTS ON! Thanks a lot guys... What you did was really nice... NOT!! But,other than that, the weekend was a blast. It was the 1st time I got to experiance you people in the state of intoxication, and might I say how funny it was (except for Joe and I.. WE WERE SOBER DAMNIT!)I also learned to get over people and certain situation this weekend, and that people don't always mean what they do, whether it be good or bad... they don't always mean it.
Being as though I was exhausted, God must have known that and blessed me with a day off from school yesterday! No, not b/c of ice or snow... BUT BECAUSE SOME IDIOTS VANDELIZED 46 BUSSES AND THEY HAD TO CANCEL SCHOOL! But, it worked out for me, so who cares?
Heard a great quote today... "If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were." I think it totally applies to my life right now, in so many ways. All of this time I thought I was in love, but was I right? Do I know what it is? If he never comes back was I really ever in love with him? These questions have been running through my mind recently... I feel like I have been living a lie these past few weeks. Just becasue it has been going on for so long, does it mean love, or something else? Maybe, I am just afriad to leave on a new adventure and keep going back to the "same old comfortable shoe". For so long I have thought I was in love with one person, yet, when I am not together with him, he cannot seem to even be my friend, that he can only love me in a relationship, not in a friendship? But if he cannot love me as a friend, can he love me as more? These are the questions I am faced with. I am soooo confused. :(
Chorus Concert on Friday Night! Heck yea! You all should come and see my stupid ass sing! lol 7pm JMHS Fine Arts Building! lol ~Love you all!
Current mood:  crushed Current music: For Unto Us a Child is Born, The Messiah
Wednesday, December 3, 2003
I have been ridiculousy busy the past like 2 weeks, i havent even had time to think! Wow , so much to say!
Last week was tech for Scrooge (exhausting) and friday we opened! Wow... it was totally an awesome show! I'm am so glad that I did it this year, b/c I absolutley adore everyone in it (well almost everyone...)and I had a great time this week! Saturday was good, and after i went out and really got to know Joe and Jason a little better (my 2 new friends! so glad we met!)Hopefully they stick around for a few more shows, because i absolutley adore them both! Sean and Renée were there too, but they're old news! lol JK! Love you guys more than life! After the Sunday show i came home though, and was forced to fill out my college apps, and study for the SAT's... :( oh well... A few days have gone by without my crew... (Renée, Lindz,Sean, DLo, Courtney, and the new member Jason and Joe!) and i am completley miserable! lol
So, yea... The whole me and Andy thing is great.. b/c i love him... but i thought it was totally getting to serious for our situation right now... So i talked to him last night... I told him that we should see other people when we are away from each other... he seemed a little upset, but i thought we totally agreed on that from the begining... so i dont know why he's being like this... boy are just f'ed up period... some are completely honest, and others like you, and lie right to ur face, but tell other people that they're JELOUSE! kill myself! Nevertheless, the last thing i want to do in the world is hurt Andy... b/c he is the best thing that has ever happened to me... but its just hard right now, and i want to experiance life... i hope he can just understand.
Anyway... all my apps are in (well, the only 2 schools that i liked so far anyway... lol) And hopefully in a fwe months i will know what's in store in my future. YAY! Man, all of these people that are so clase to me, I am so afraid to loose them all when i go away! its going to be soooo hard to say good-bye to everyone... we are all headed in so many different directions. AAAHHH , im sad over it and we're not even done with the 1st semester... lolKaitlyn prob at Ramapo, doin her graphics thing, Pam is stayin here, Jill the brain will prob go to like Princeton lol,Verdi at Stockton, and me GOD KNOWS WHERE! its too much to deal with all at once. i can believe that all of these people I have known like my whole life, in a few months, wont be a part of my everyday like anymore.... :( Wow, i am so depressing! The only thing I wont miss is the High School DRAMA! I'm not talking about plays, im talkin about the BACK STABBING BITCHES, WHO I HOPEFULLY WILL GET AWAY FROM! YAY! LOL thats the inly good part about leaving, the part where u get to start over, and meet decent people who will accept u for who u are, and not snub u for stupid reasons!
Wow, long entry... be back later...
Current mood:  confused Current music: "Story Goes on"~Baby
Sunday, November 16, 2003
Well, as you all know... TODAY IS MY 18TH BIRTHDAY! I can now do the following things...
1. Buy cigarettes... ( I don't smoke... lol)
2. But lottery tix (Don't like wasting money haha)
3. Drive more than one person in my car (Don't wanna drive you're skany asses around anyway! lol)
4. Buy Porn...(hhhmmmm could be useful... JK!)
5. Sign myself out of school ( NOW WE'RE TALKIN!)
6. Date anyone of any age I want... (hhhmmmmmm....lol)
7. Getting a CREDIT CARD and Checking account! (Yay! lolololol)
8. Don't need my mommy to sign everything! (YAY!!!!!!)
9. Get arrest if I punch anyone... (Hmmmm, could be bad... watch out mutha suckas lol...)
10. Get pierced or tattoed with out needing permission...(Don't want any!)
So, I guess being 18 isn't much differnt from 17... :( lol
Saturday, November 8, 2003
10:18AM
I AM: Nikki
I WANT: The World... I want the WHOLE WORLD! ~Willy Wonka
I HAVE: Great friends
I HATE: ANNYOING STALKERS! MARISSA! LOL Top 10 reasons why he should... lol
I MISS: Andy!!!
I FEAR: not being successful
I HEAR: MUSICALS 24/7!
I REGRET: Hurting him when he needed me the most
I AM NOT: Afraid of anyone
I DANCE: All the time!
I AM NOT ALWAYS: In a good mood
I WRITE: letters
I NEED: SLEEP !
I SHOULD: go to the gym more lol
MY BOYFRIEND&GIRLFRIEND THINKS I AM: funny
WHAT ARE 3 THINGS YOU GET COMPLIMENTED FOR THE MOST:
1. My voice/ performing
2. My sense of Humor
3. My looks
I AM EMBARRASSED WHEN: People point me out of the crowd and yell at me
WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY IS: Performing and jokes! jokes are life! lol
( YES OR NO )
DO YOU KEEP A DIARY: You are reading it right now!
DO YOU LIKE TO COOK: Yes... love it... Most famous dish being my chicken stir-fry... hhhhmmmm hhhhmmmm good!
DO YOU SET YOUR WATCH A FEW MINUTES AHEAD: Nope... I'm not usually late
DO YOU BITE YOUR FINGERNAILS: yes... i know, im bad... lol
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: yes
( WHO IS/ARE )
THE PRETTIEST MALE YOU KNOW: ummm... pretty? I guess... EJ? lol
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: besides myself... ummm Andrea lol
THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Again besdies myself? lol Ummm... i dunno i only know sexy people so its hard to determine who's the sexiest...lol
YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS: Umm... u guys know who u are
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: probably Andy
( WHAT IS )
YOUR MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON IM: BTW! lol
THE LAST IMAGE/THOUGHT YOU GO TO SLEEP WITH: Too dirty... jk jk! lol
YOUR BEST FEATURE: my hair
INSIDE JOKE: Milk Jars ! Canadian Bacon!
( DO YOU )?
TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: ummm yes duh
THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE: yes... definetly
WANT TO GET MARRIED: Eventually
GET MOTION SICKNESS: Yes... everytime i sit in the backseat of a car
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: depends on the day
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENT(S): yuppers
( RANDOM-NESS )
SCREEN NAMES: showgirl1116,
SIGN: scorpio
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: dark brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark brown
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: Da bronx! yea mutha sucka..lol
( FAMILY )
PARENTS: umm yea
SIBLINGS: yup... mike
LIVE WITH: my parents and bro until next year
FAVORITE RELATIVE: Grandma lol and Aunt Julie... they are funny as shit!
( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 16
COLOR: red
DAY: Friday Night and saturday
MONTH: November
SONG:A lot... Andy knows all of them :)
FOOD: shrimp scampi and Villa Victoria!! OMG!
SEASON: Fall
SPORT: NONE!
DRINK: Rasberry Iced Tea~ Snapple
VEGGIE: Pepers
FRUIT: orange, watermelon, and ... peaches
( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Depends on the moment
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? Chocolate milk
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? Vanilla ice cream... but chocolate everything else
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? sure
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yea! shop-aholic
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? was supposed to yesterday
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yup! Villa Victoria
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yea
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? e-mail only
TALKED TO AN EX? well if you consider andy and ex and a current... lol
MISSED AN EX? yea... everyday
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? ummm duh
MISSED SOMEONE? yea
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yes
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope
Friday, November 7, 2003
Tracy Turnblad, go you!
<a You're
Marissa is a drag queen, and I'M FAT! LOL HAHAHAHA
Wednesday, November 5, 2003
OMG! Everyone is getting along! What the hell is going on? LOL I am getting along with Jenna, Marissa, and Steph all at the same time? Has it finally happened? Has everyone finally realized that all of this bullshit is stupid, and that there is no reason that we all shouldn't be friends? OMG!!! It's unbelievable!! I'm in awe! lol Yet, next week.. this all might end... Auditions... hhhhmmm... lol Well, whatever happens I hope that our "getting along thing" won't change! Let's keep it alive kids!
So anyway... We are at 11 days until the big 18!! Yay! Let me go through my day for you all!
1st period~ Everyone in our class failed yesterdays quiz! hahahaha! So we all have to retake it. why on earth did I take Spanish 4? lol But, I can;t wait to do our scene! We practiced it today! It is going to be so funny! Devon is dead... I'm crying.. and José gets pissed off! Coming to a theater near you! lol
2nd~ People need to stop having bad opinions! lol or rather, UNEDUCATED ones... YEA ANARCHY! Umm.. kill youself! "UMMM EVERYONE SHOULD GO TO COLLEGE!" ummm NO... b/c soon we are going to have garbage men with PHD's!haha
3rd~ We finally got to watch a tape of Nicole! yay! I brought in Joseph for all to enjoy today! lol (They prob didn't but oh well.. dont care...)And we talked about friggen KING AND I again!!!! i don't want to talk about it anymore... lets just audition and get it over with! lol
4th~ Chase... self explainitory... why are me and Marissa the only ones who friggen sing!?!? If you can't sing, why join a "CHORUS!" I love how she tries to make us feel guilty, when we don't even do anything wrong, BTW! lol
Quote of The Day : "You can't stop the beat... " ~Hairspray
Sunday, November 2, 2003
Well, I guess the past few days have been pretty eventful. Some of the events need not be mentioned on a website, b/c they are not appropriate (haha PAM is mad at me... sorry i just couldn't do it!)So, this week dragged like a mofo. I hung out with Andy on monday, enough said. lol Then the rest of the week was just a blur. I help with the drama yesterday and I must say everyone did quite a awesome job! Especially my lovers, EJ and Chelsea! You guy were friggen awesome as hell! Speaking of Chelsea... her and I have become very close this week, and I must say I surley love her. Our week started off going to buy make-up and having to go to Ms.T's house. (Umm Chelsea why is it exactly how we pictured it? lol) So, yea... Chelsea I love you, you're a hell of an actress, and do what you feel, not what you're parents think is best for you? OK! WOULD YOU LIKE AN APPLEPIE WITH THAT? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
It's 14 days until my birthday, the big 18!!!! So excited! yay! and it's 13 days until LINDA EDER CONCERT!!! IM ALREADY CREAMING MY PANTS! LOL
... Top 10 Reason's Why I HATE PEOPLE!...(no particular order...)
1. They have no life and make their focus in life talking about me.
2. Because no matter what I do, I'm alwyas the bad guy!
3. They make up stories and drag my name in them. (EJ!! LOL! )
4. They talk out of their asses and talk about things that they know nothing about... aka yesterday i wanted to punch someone in the face!
5. Becasue some people are firggen annoying ass stalkers! (Marissa knows how I'm talking about...lol He def called me again today! and Everyone in Drama Club knows "The Troll" lol)
6. Just because some people ask for my advice, then don't take it... and then cry to me after things turn out BAD!!!!
7. Becasue they are seniors in high school and act like the are senior in pre-school. Grow up and shut the F!@# up in class u morons!
8. Becasue they make out in the friggen school hallways that arent friggen crowded enough as it is! And then those skanks, who are usually dirty mofo's sit in it and make out!!!!! GROSSSSS! PAM!!!! AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
9. People who think they know what anarchy is! GOD I HATE THAT GIRL! Thats for 2nd period Sociology! lol esp my man John Callahan! lol
10. Becasue people are flat out annoying and rude, and have no reason to breath the oxygen that should be saved for other people to breath! LOL
Quote of the Day: "If I had to choose between betraying my country and betraying my friend, I hope I should have the guts to betray my country." ~ E.M. Forster
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
So, yea.. I talked things out with Marissa and I feel a lot better. We realized that we were both being retared and that we should be friends , not ememies... WHICH IS GOOD! So, I'm happy that shizzle is over! I think everyone has forgotten about all the last year, slam book crap, and relaized that it was all stupid and shouldn't have happened... And I'm glad that we are all talking as friends again, and hope it stays that way! :)
So, today was a weird day. We took our senior class picture outside and some fat ass had to break the rules and stand in front of me, and then some other kid with a huge afro stood in front on me and Pam... So, if imnot seen in the picture its NOT MY FAULT! lol So, 3rd period and we're in drama... OMG, FUNNIEST DAY EVER! LET ME LIST ALL OF THE FUNNY SHIT! (BTW... Only EJ and Jenna are going to understand this... lol)
1. We started to make a list of the TOP TEN REASONS why "IT" should DIE! lol There were WAY more than ten, so we gave up on that! lololol
2. We were making fun of "IT" and "IT" always has to harrass EJ about his ex's... So it's always a laugh when we make fun of "IT"
3. Then at the end of class, I was all hyper and stuff, and singing TEQUILA.. and "IT" was pretending to hang himself with the string from the window blinds.. so EJ yells, "OK EVERYBODY STOP "IT" WANTS ATTENTION..." We all look at him for a few seconds and then he says, "OK GO BACK TO WHAT YOU WERE DOING..." So I bust out right back into the song and start dancing again!!! It was like a movie!! It was soooooo FUNNY!!! I'm killing it, but i almost peepeed my pants! lol
4. this is 4th period now, and I wrote out this thing for Marissa that was, "TOP TEN REASONS WHY "THE OTHER IT" SHOLD DIE! LOL HAHA OMG! "Becasue I beg to be in shows and should be put out of my misery!" lol omg! LOL Ok, yea we're mean.. we have to stop!.. NO MORE! lol (yea riiight! haha)
OMG, I have to sing at a wedding on friday... and I have nothing to wear yet, so I have to go after work and find something! I wish i didn't have to go, but I'm singing their wedding song (Power of Love, Celine Dion...) so I have to go... lol haha I need shoes too b/c my reattr dog chewed my fav ones! EEWWW HATE HIM!
And Andy... Stop being a crank ass! Cheer up Chairlie! I love you! mwah!
Quote of The day :"It's better to be talked about badly than not to be talked about at all".~Oscar Wilde (thanks for this one EJ :) LOVE IT )
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
So, as usual, today I woke up late, and ran into school right before my teahcer was going to make me absent! lol Then after we take our DAILY TEST in SPANISH 4, she told us our 1st MP grades. I WAS SO FRIGGEN MAD! I WAS 7/100 TH'S AWAY FROM AN A, AND SHE GAVE ME A B+!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! I CAN'T BELIEVE AFTER ALL OF THE EXTRA CRAP THAT I DID, SHE GAVE ME A B+!! SOOOOOO MADDDDDD! I WOULD HAVE HAD A 4.0 THIS SEMESTER!! ggrrrr!
So, anyway... lol the rest of the day was normal, i think I might have donr bad on my sociology test, but whatever! And 3rd period we did nothing as usual, and 4th was when it all went down hill GYM! I once again, because I was late, forgot my gym clothes, so I couldn't get changed. So, EJ is sitting next to me on the bleachers. So as usual we are talking about shows and crap, and all of a sudden i try and get up, and it feels like there is glue on my booty! NO IT F!@#$ GUM, THAT SOME JACKSON DIRT BAD SPIT OUT ON LEFT ON THE BLEACHER!!! AAAAHHHHH! NO MY FAVORITE JEANS ARE RUINED!!! So, EJ is standing there trying to pick the gum off of my ass, with people watching... then we decided that a we'd stick a piece of paper on it, so that my ass wouldn;t stick to everyhting that I sat down on! It was pretty funny, I guess... lol
Um, have to go to reharsal tonight. I never found myself dreading rehearsal, but i totally am for this show! Don't know why.. but whatever...
Quote of the Day : "In Germany, they first came for the communists, and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a communist. Then they came for the Jews, and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Jew. Then they came for the trade unionists, and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a trade unionist. Then they came for the Catholics and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Catholic. Then they came for me -- and by that time there was nobody left to speak up." -Martin Niemöller
Monday, October 20, 2003
Ok, so the reason I wrote about the ESP yesterday was, because I felt it!! And God knows I was friggen right again! I called Andrew up, and wouldn't you know that he was upset about something! Sooo WERID! Any who!
Today, was like any other NORMAL day. I, as usual, had the feeling of not wanting to be in school, but hey, i can;t do anything about it, so I migh as well enjoy the time I have left there, right? It's not that bad, and things are getting better, as far as the "gossip mill", so hopefully everything will blow over, and things will get back to normal. I don'twant anyone to be mad at me, or for me to be mad at them,becasue life is to short to get mad and not be friends over STUPID STUFF!! I am happy for all of you, no matter what you all think. I wish nothing but the best for you, and hope that all of your dreams come true. I do not wish anything bad upon you, and it the truth with all of my sincerity that you allhave a great future! I am in no way jelous or out to get anyone, and I hope you all understand that! (And you all know who this is going too, so I hope that perosn gets it). I am willing to put it behind me, if you are? No War, only peace! :)
Anyway... I guess that's it for now... Have a good night everyone! Mwah!
Quote of the Day : "Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything." ~Muhammed Ali
Respond to my quotes.. I like that! Thanks! ~Nikki
Sunday, October 19, 2003
You guys are going to think that I am so weird, but this has proven to be true over and over again. Andrew and I have actual ESP within each other! Like, we can not talk at all one day, but we both know when the other one is upset or something is wrong, and we even get feelings that when we are in the same place, or are going to see each other! Freaks me the hell out.Listen to this little story.
About 3 years ago, I started working at this place in the Outlets, and I had just gotten the job that day, and didn't tell Andrew I started it yet. So, that day they had me sitting outside watching the sidewalk sale and I say to the girl I worked with, "I think Andrew is here. I know that he is going to be here and walk by the store." Only about 5 minutes later, him and his mom come WALKING BY MY TABLE OUTSIDE!!!!! NO LIE!! This wasn't even a good guess, because he never goes to the outlets! So that was a freaky one, among soooooo many others! To be continued... lol
Ok, well to be pefectly frank, my mother has been the
worlds biggest bitch, EVER, in the past 3 days! Especially
last night... let me tell you about this.
Last night, I went to the band competition at school,
to see my friends play (they were awesome as usual! lol),
and to my delight some people that I haven't seen in
forever were there... Kelly, Jenna, Mary, Brittnay... yay!
And of course I went with Cocco! So, Me, Mary, and Kelly
get up to go the concession stand to get stuff and my
phone rings... It's my mother... "Oh god what now??!?!" So
I answet the phone and all of a sudden I hear what
resembles a lions roar, and it's my mother screaming at me
for not cleaning my room before i left!!!! OK and then she
says that I have to come right home after the competition,
and that I can't go out! AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! I think she
looks for friggen excuses for me not to go out! I swear to
god, she needs to get a friggen grip on reality! I am
going to be 18 in 27 days... And in a few months I'll be
away in college. How long is she going to treat me like I
5 years old? SERIOUSLY!!! She needs to get a reality
check, and realize that a clean room is not IMPORTANT! IF
I HAVEN'T KEPT A CLEAN ROOM IN 18 YEARS, WHAT MAKES HER
THINK THAT IM GUNNA START NOW!No, it just gives her an
excuse not to let me go out with my friends and have a
good time.
To top the whole evening off, after I devised a way
to allow myself to get tot he resturant, 1/2 of our people
didnt show up until an hour after me and Steve got there,
so we didn't leave the resturante until like 1:00... then
had to drive Steve home, so I walked in the door about
1:30... So, now I got grounded for an extra weekend
because of that! "A seventeen year old should not be out
til 1;30 in the MORNING" is the speech I got this morning!
See, I am only 17, when it's conveniant for them to punish
me... See when they want me to be responsible for
something they say "An 18 year old shouldn't do something
like that!" AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! She thinks that she can
dictate my life to me, and I should follow everything she
tells me to do! Well guess what, IM NOT GUNNA DO IT!! I am
old enough to make my own decisions, and when she is going
to realize that... I HAVE NO IDEA...!!! It's sooooo
aggrivating! Ok, and I know it's not just me when I say
this, my friends parents aren't 1/2 as bad as her! Ok, she
could have let me go out and have a good time last night,
and if she was pissed off, talked to me about it when I
came home, instead of making me talk to her on the phone
in front of my freinds being embarrased that "MY mommy
yelled at me!" GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!
Anyway... I was happy to see my friends last night,
and I still had a good time seeing them! Just remember
CAMP JIM!! YEA! lol bye...
Quote of the day : "True friends stab you in the front."
Everyone has that one person that they love, that the
feeling never goes away. That person that you can trust
with anything, even your deepest, darkest, secret. (not
that I have one.) Well, this person for me is no other than
my Andrew. Whether we are friends, or more than friends
lmao, he is always that one I can turn too. I am saying
this today for a certian reason though (b/c he already know
how I feel about him)becasue today I saw the news story of
the Staten Island the crashed!! I know that Andrew takes
the ferry, so I almost had a heart attack!! But, then later
realized that I already talk to him today and ahe was
fine!! RELIEF!! lol But, I just wanted you to know, that if
anything does happen to one of us, ever, that I love you. I
honestly love you with all my heart, and no matter what , I
always will! mwah! :) And just thank you for being you...
This is my life, WELCOME! This is going to be a place
where I write about positive things, becasue I'm not into
airing my dirty laundry for everyone to read. Unlike the
pages of some people I know, I will do my best to keep
bashing out of it, and this will be a place where I can
tell you all what I think, and why I love "most" of you.
Being as though this is my first entry, I guess I
should tell you all about myself.(Not that most of you dont
already know.)Haha I'm am 18 years old (almost yay!) and
the thing I enjoy most in life is... ha bet you all thought
I was going to say theater...! LOL Well even thought that
that theater is one of my favorite things to do...Being
with family and friends ranks above all of that. Well, I
guess show people are my FAMILY!!! "WE ARE FAMILY... I GOT
ALL MY THESPIANS WITH ME..." lol Especially Courtney,
Diana, Renée,Brit, and Lindsay! I guess I could throw
Seany Gannon Ryan "the hoe bag" Lammer,and Seanypoo Murphy
in there too.. Oh and KEVY! :)
But, I also have a set of friends that I don't know
how I would live without (not that the others arent just as
special.. U ARE...LOL) Cocco Loco is my life, along with
the very sexy Andrea, and probably the closest to my heart,
Andrew. With out these people I would probably go utterly
insane and wanna kill myself.(Or set my pumpkin head ass on
fire, right? lol )
I also have the best family in the world. My parents,
brother, and grandmother make my life an ever humorus
event. I feel that I can share anything with any of
them ,and am proud of that fact. Not many people my age can
do that so, I feel lucky because of it. Not to mention that
they are all endlessly supportive of me, and the things I
do. I love them very much.
Quote of the Day: "If you want enemies, be better at
something than someone else.. If you want friends, you have
to let them be better than you." And Nikki says, TAKE THE
ENEMIES... BE THE BEST AND F!@# EVERYONE ELSE!
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